Do what you like, like what you do. I am doing the latter right now, so I can do the first soon.

Whatever it is, i’ll do it my way. And you, don’t rain on my parade.

sarirasaraswati:

Dalam hidupnya seorang ibu melakukan 6 kebohongan yang diampuni oleh tuhan dan dipuja di segala zaman..

kebohongan 1:

Saat makan, jika melihat makanan yang tersedia kurang, ia akan memberikan makanan itu kepada anaknya dan berkata “cepatlah makan, mama tidak lapar”

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what do you do when you feel sad? painting

what do you do when you feel happy? painting

what is it that you like from painting? sense of creating something

why is it important? because i’m thinking and not thinking at the same time

meaning? think to create something and not think about anything else except that

Why do i tend to love someone who is so very hard to get? Because it’s interesting? Because it’s increase my adrenalin? Why is it like i tend to choose suffering rather than happiness on my consciousness? Do we have some mental-problem name for pushing ourselves to be suffered? 

Something wrong with me. Now i realize that. Something wrong with me.

I pushed myself to love someone like that. Then i stressed it out. Being suffered. I even lower my level on certain field to do some adjustment to him. I’m trying so hard in everything. It make me desperate. 

I can’t live this way.This is a kind of self-destruction action. I should have not live this way!

It would be nice to just love someone that you can understand well —not too hard, not too easy. A person whom you don’t have to adjust your level whenever you talk to them. A person whom with him you don’t have to try so hard. Do not need to be stressed out so often. Just like that, being the simplest you… yet he can understand what you mean so very well. 

Kebahagiaan hari ini terdiri dari:

hujan, kasur, dan serial how i met your mother season 7

Nothing wrong. Not any negative emotions. Not sad, not happy. Just a feeling of: “something is not right..” but do not know what :-|